Thursday, January 27, 2011


I am SO sorry for neglecting you guys! The sperm donor is not paying the internet/cable bill until THE END OF FEBRUARY. Until then, no posts from me or at least I'll try to post when I get the chance. I just wanna let you guys know that when I get back the internet, there's gonna be a mega post chock full of pictures and videos. You guys are my awesome fans and you deserve it for waiting this out with me. Thank you guys so much. Hugs and kisses from the ChronicStumbler xxxx

Thursday, January 20, 2011

My Communication Studies IA theme

I just wanna get you guys' feedback on the theme for my Comm IA. I've chosen the theme '"Homosexuality" is nature'. Feel free to give me your opinions and feelings on the topic and even on homosexuality in people. Also does anyone know where I can get my hand on a book called Biological Exuberance by Bruce Bagemihl? My whole IA rides on this one book. If you can give me a catchy title for my IA, I'd love you for life cos I'm so not creative.

So "homosexuality in animals". My teacher told me to put it in inverted commas so as not to offend homosexuals that would be offended and cos homosexuality is generally a human trait. I beg to differ. The information I've found, though old, is pretty feasible. This same book above, is all about animals shagging members of the same sex. Bruce Bagemihl is a biologist, linguist and author and has published many books on animal "homosexuality" and other like topics (look him up). I chose the topic cos it's pretty interesting and not very well talked about or known. I guess the purpose of my IA is to educate on the topic and show that homosexuality could very well be more nature than nurture. I think I can bring my own experience in homosexuality into my IA.

I think that's it for now cos I only have like ten minutes til the internet goes bye-bye.

Thanks in advance for your feedback you guys.

Life fucking sucks right now

My mum is gonna cut the internet at 12  she thinks I use it too much and I need to do my homework and house chores. Like wow. I was gonna do all that before she said she was gonna cut the internet. So right now I'm using  said internet to try and hurry some of my Envi IA before it goes away for the day. What am I gonna be doing with my Comm IA and for the rest of the day? I have no idea since there's nothing much else to do. My family doesn't understand that I have next to no life besides the internet. If I try to have a life outside of that, well, let's just say my parents can't afford me having a life outside of the internet. Life really sucks right now. I always knew I was born into the wrong family. This confirms it.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I. Am. Stressed.

I just saw one of my chickens dead. Killed by my dog. It was one of the cocks which she really hate. He was most likely fluffing himself up for her. She hates that. We have to keep her away from Emraz, one of the other cocks. This has me really stressed. More than I was earlier cos I know the sperm donor is gonna come home and act like a real fuckin' asshole and most likely beat my dog til he kills her. Him beating her will be 99.999% because one of his chickens died and he's frustrated with his pathetic life. If he can kill a dog, who's to say he won't kill one of us when we do something wrong? Riiiiiiiiiiiiiight... Remember when I told you guys the memory of when I was younger with him wanting to kill us all in the house? 'Kay. Just hoping you remembered. Anyway, I've been mowing down my nails from stress. It's so weird. I've tried for about 5 years to stop biting my nails. I've been pretty successful. I feel like crying. I feel like screaming. I wanna hide. I don't even know what to do with myself right now *groans*

Monday, January 17, 2011

Eighth and ninth followers and a window that won't close

So my eight follower is xXcallousXcalamityXx who clearly doesn't have a blog. Too bad. Would have liked to read some stuff from her. Ninth follower is whose blog is is Italian x.x This blog is about a lot of different stuff, art, music, funny pictures. It's pretty cool. Thank god for Google Translate =D

There's a window in my house the WON'T CLOSE. It's a French window that has a latch to close it and a little knob that fits into the hole in the handle to keep it open (I am SO bad at giving descriptions!!) So the little latch had broken off and the window would swing open on the first hole and slam back if there was wind. We counteracted this by putting a big bottle of water next to the handle to keep it closed. Worked pretty well. Now the little knob that fits into the holes of the handle had broken off too (*dies*) We counteracted that with the bottle again. No problem. Now the handle has broken off and the window keeps opening wide in the wind and slamming shut. I have no idea what to do about it but it annoys me to no end.

Sunday, January 16, 2011


I made brownies tonight!!! The progression of turning the ingredients into one cohesive batter follows:

It's pretty hard to mix this by hand with no mechanical power

I did yoga tonight!! Twas fun. I promise to try to do more yoga as this will be my only means of exercise T-T Check out the yoga I did tonight ------->

So I did some homework tonight. I didn't do all. School is a fucking drag man! I'm trying to soldier through but it's so hard! Grrrr.... Anyway I'm going to sleep now. But before I do, Check out this song by DEV. I absolutely love it -------> I would totally shag her. Seriously. 

Just for my man modnite who loves my chickens

It's so fluffaaayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!! [2]

The puppy is on its way to its real owners. I'm gonna miss her. She was fun and I miss having puppies to come home too. All our dogs (except one) are related. Generations of pups. Sigh. Here's a cute video!

Saturday, January 15, 2011

It's so fluffaaayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!

So the screen for my laptop is working for I don't know how long. So I'm posting some squeeeeee for yew! This puppy is here til tomorrow or Monday. It's for someone who works in my mum's office. It's so adorable and fluffaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy!!!!!!

Friday, January 14, 2011

Please excuse me for my lack of posts

The screen of my laptop is dead. Whatever element that is responsible for the lighting up of my screen has quit. This is just to let you guys know that I haven't stopped posting or reading your blogs because I hate you. I love you. I will read your blogs and post stuff to my blog when I get a chance.

Thank you for your patience.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Trini Cuisine: Homemade Brownies

I made these the same day I made the fudge. Sorry I'm only now posting it. School really saps your energy sometimes. These came out way batter than my fail fudge. Tastes just like brownies from the box. I must warn you that if you don't have a hand mixer or a standing mixer, get ready for a serious workout.

3/4 cup flour
1/4 tsp salt
1/4 lb (1/2 cup) soft margarine
3 tbsp water
1/3 cup cocoa powder
1 cup granulated sugar
2 eggs
1 tsp vanilla


  1. Combine oll of the above well
  2. Bake in and 8 inch greased tin at 350 degrees Farenheit for 25 minutes
  3. Cool in tin. Cut into squares.

Simple instructions, right? Sometimes I fuck up the measurements big time. So instead of putting 3/4 cup flour, I put 3/3 cup flour and I put way more than 3 tbsp of water. By the way, I multiplied this recipe by two; I think it fit better in my 9 inch by 11 inch pan than if it were a single batch. I forgot to take pictures of the mixing but here's after! I forgot to grease the foil *facepalm*

Happy baking!


I had some pictures on my phone for you guys and when I copied and pasted them to my pictures folder on my pc, some were missing. I already deleted the pics from my phone. Can someone tell me what happened???


I am so tired right now. I'm in school and I could fall asleep at any point in time. I did no homework last night cos I was so sleepy. I'm sorry I haven't updated the fudge post yet. I was so tired then I had lessons. When I came back I went to bed. I have a brownie post to put up. Pictures and everything! Just for modnite. School is just sapping the energy from me. I have no idea how. I came to the new term all fresh and bright and by the end of the week I was dead. Now I'm the living dead. Just floating along. kjfgiuieipyeyu.... Sorry, head just hit the keyboard there. I want to stay home tomorrow so bad but mum said staying home once a week is enough *cry*

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Trini Cuisine: Vanilla fudge

So kiddies, here comes another recipe from the Naparima Cookbook! Vanilla Fudge! This is the first time I've ever made this. It's cooling right now. I won't know how it came out until the fudge connoisseurs (i.e. mum and sis) have a go at it when it's cooled.

2 cups granulated sugar
1 tbsp butter
1 tin condensed milk
1 tsp vanilla essence (I put more cos I love vanilla essence)


  1. Dissolve sugar in approx. 1/4 cup of water over LOW HEAT
  2. Add milk and butter and bring GENTLY to a boil
  3. Boil steadily, stirring constantly until the mixture becomes thick and creamy 
  4. Remove pan from heat, add essence (DON'T ADD ESSENCE BEFORE. I don't know what will happen if you do but I assume the essence will degrade while cooking rendering your noms inedible) and beat a few times
  5. Pour fudge into a greased pan about 6 inches by 8 inches and leave to cool
  6. When really set, mark in squares with a sharp knife and divide up when cool
Add I know how much you guys love pictures! Pictures make reading fun I think. Don't you?

The sugar and water.

Basically you're making a simple syrup in this step. Sweet!

Simple syrup plus condensed milk and butter

Stirring! I took this one with one hand *clicks tongue in a cool way*

I used foil to line to dish. Makes the dish easier to clean. Make sure to grease the foil

It's cooling under that grease protector thingy to protect from flies. Maybe when it's not so hot I'll put it in the freezer

Look out for an update on the fudge. More pictures!

My fudge came out terrible. It wasn't cooked down enough so it was goopy. Mum put it back on the stove to cook a bit. When I came back from lessons I met this:
This is when mum was cooking it more. Notice it's darker in colour, more golden

My fudge had hardened when I came back. It wasn't smooth but the texture wasn't that bad either

Mum was eating the fudge from off the spoon. Like licking it like a lollipop

Monday, January 10, 2011

How to deal with: The annoying little sister

I'm coming into my room with my laptop, hands full, so I ask my sister to bring in my fan for me please. She says no. Alrighty then. No problem. I'll get my own fan. Going to get it now, she brings it in and says, "I'm too nice to you." Mash brakes. What?? You're too NICE to me? She says mean things to me and does mean things to me ALL DAY. Too nice? I tell her that she's always mean to me. She tells me that she's nice to everyone else and mean to me so that I won't walk over her. Mash brakes again. ME walk over HER? I don't walk over ANYONE. Why in hell would she think that I'll walk over her? I'm asking her why she thinks that and she feigns being asleep. This. Fucking. Irritates me to no END. I'm like, "Fine! Fuck you." in my head and I go for my shit to do some Chemistry. I'm pounding my tunes, doing my Chemistry and she MAGICALLY wakes up and goes outside. I actually hear her LAUGHING at something on tv. You've got to be fucking kidding me, right? Then she has the AUDACITY to ask me to use the laptop. Like WOW. Really? REALLY? You just fucking DISRESPECTED me. You were rude to me. And you expect me to be NICE? Fuck no. Mega brace for her. No laptop for you. Now she's laying on her bed doing nothing. I don't know why she doesn't go watch some tv. I'm hurt on different levels. It's like yeah she's my little sister (not so little actually; we're a year apart) but day-um! She doesn't have to be so mean to me! She's always rude and disrespectful to me. She doesn't respect me as the older one. It hurts not to be taken seriously. It hurts even more when it's your fucking family. It hurts on another level cos she thinks I'll TAKE ADVANTAGE OF HER. WHAT???????? I wouldn't take advantage of ANYONE (I think I stated this earlier). Like wow. Why would she think her own family would take advantage of her? Anyway she just handed me her iPod to charge for her. I'll be the bigger (more mature) person and charge plug it into my laptop. Cos I'm a nice sister.

Feelin' like a big lady

My mum just handed me the official C.A.P.E. timetable. I'm actually excited. I am so fed up of school. I want it to be over with. Having exams in the next couple months just makes me so happy. It's almost over. Yay! Then I get a year to chill and scratch my most private parts and have no schoolwork to do. In this year off, I'll be applying to Yakima (I got the package the other day!!) and seeing if I can get my driver's license and maybe a job. I feel like a big lady xD In the meantime, I'm just gonna be calm and stress-free.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Happy "Birthday" to me!

Today I went out with my sister and her friends. We pretended it was my birthday. LOL. I'm a terrific liar. Here are the pics:

I'm not allowed to post pictures with people's faces =( The fingers are air quotations for my "birthday". This is my "birthday" ice-cream


And on to other news.... Today I took some pictures of the crazy rain we had today. Here they are:
The mountains...

More mountains....


This was the windscreen. The rain was pelting us O.O

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Mélange de sentiments

I'm in a mess right now. Got so many feelings swirling around inside me. Maybe it's cos I'm too soft that people take advantage of me. Or maybe I'm just naturally a fool. I think I'm naturally a fool. Why in hell would I think that I could still be friends with the guy that took my virginity and broke off our relationship? Why am I still crying over him after a whole year of breaking up with him? Why am I still fucking single if I'm beautiful and such a nice person? Why do people hate me and say things about me if I'm such a nice person? I'm trying to be so optimistic and so happy with just being alone and having one friend that I can trust but it's fucking hard to look at that and be happy. Ugh I'm trying so hard not to bash myself or the life I live right now but it's hard. It is so hard not to do that right now. I'm having an emotional breakdown.


So earlier this morning there were some kids walking up the street from lessons and there were two stragglers. Now the stragglers stood up under the shade of the Poui tree in our yard and started touching each other. They weren't making out per se but you could see they were together. But I think I should clarify: the stragglers were a guy and a girl. They were touching each other and kissing RIGHT IN FRONT OUR YARD. My mum saw them from our open door. They didn't give a flying fuck. The girl was giggling and yelping like a bitch in heat. They went up the street a couple minutes later. My mum was dying from laughter. Next thing we know, we hear the girl AGAIN. And AGAIN they're under shade of the tree making out. Ell oh em gee. Seriously? I mean, I'm a goddamn freaky hobbit but you don't see me doin' stuff like that! They went up the street again and they came back ANOTHER time. They didn't come back after. Tsk tsk tsk. Absolutely no shame OR class.

A couple nights ago, I found two of my followers on Facebook. We've exchanged messages for a bit but I've really bonded with modnite up til last night. He's a really cool guy. Really interesting. I'm waiting to see how far it will go between us. I'm not looking for any relationship and neither is he so I'm just being me.

I'm home alone for the afternoon. It's all good. Get to be by myself. I like being alone sometimes. I like not having my family bothering me. Today is good.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Random pictures for you to enjoy

Chickens! Just for modnite!

They came for their foodie


In French!

Chicken on the wall

Chicken laying

The Prime Minister! First female Prime Minister of Trinidad and Tobago. Google her.

Roosting chickens. Check out the freaky eyes


More eggs!


Thursday, January 6, 2011

Busy Bee

I have been so busy with school that I have barely been able to post anything far less for reading you guys' blogs! I am so sorry! I feel like I'm neglecting you guys! Please forgive me. I love you all very much. I really hope to do something really good for you guys on weekends. Maybe when I bake some homemade cookies to sell next week I'll post the recipe and pictures for you guys. Please bear with me in this time. It'll only be for the next couple months (I have to keep telling myself that!) and then everything should be great again.

In the meantime, I'm doing great with some of my new year's resolutions. I'm proud of myself! I should be able to post those updates for you guys in the next couple days.

Eks oh eks oh,

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

New post!

School has got me so screwed right now. I have no idea when my next post will be or how good it will be. Please be satisfied with the following video:

Monday, January 3, 2011

Exercise. Discipline. Affection.

I was washing chicken poop from our mostly concrete backyard the other day and I thought about how we in Trinidad and Tobago care our dogs (and other pets by extension) compared to other societies. I was thinking about how we let Cherrish (no typo) inside the house because she isn't herself and wreaks havoc outside when she freaks out.
Remember her?
Most other societies keep there dogs inside.

I know you guys know about Cesar Milan, Dog Whisperer. You've watched at least one episode. You know his mantra: "Exercise, discipline then affection." Of course, a lot of people have that equation really twisted. Trinis are no better. Trust me. However, we don't overload our dogs with affection. We 'discipline' our dogs. Yup. Corporal punishment, yo. Our dogs aren't very mischievous. I'm sure all animals have their moments of non-conformity but our dogs aren't as crazy as you see on the show. I wonder what Cesar Milan would think of our dogs...

I'm only talking about Trinidad's dogs based on my experience with mine. I've learned a lot from Cesar Milan). We're not always able to give them a bath or carry them out for a walk but we feed them regularly, give them a clean place to stay and love them with all our hearts.

She's in the middle of a yawn believe it or not

New Year's Resolutions for 2011 UPDATE

  • Make at least 5 new friends

  • Earn and save at least $500 every month ($125 every week)

  • Maintain my pride in my physical appearance

  • Enroll in Japanese course

  • Take initiative

  • Be more bold

  • Be more positive and cheerful

  • Fit into and feel good in a bikini by the end of the year
  • Secrets to making salad dressing

    There needs to be a generous person to add the oil,
    A wise person to add the salt,
    A stingy person to add the vinegar,
    And a patient soul to toss

    Back to the grind

    School's out and I'm not excited. I'm dying to blog but I can't put out maximum quantity or quality while I'm the the school's I.T. room. I saw how many posts that have been posted since maybe Saturday night. I was cooking and hanging out yesterday so I couldn't use the computer. I almost died. I'm still dying cos I REALLY wanna get home and put out some posts for you guys. I got a couple hours til I can get home. Stay tuned for a resolutions update and a couple random posts. I feel so lost without blogging. Good thing I'll be almost out of school! Then I can blog everyday! Yay!

    EDIT: I'll be reading all my people's posts and stuff when I get home so wait with bated breath for the flurry of comments!

    Saturday, January 1, 2011

    Random pictures for you to enjoy

    My doggie under the be freaking out about the fireworks last night

    Crawling out to meet my sister to go outside (where she belongs)

    Mikey the Pillow Pet! This is what my sister got for Christmas

    This is the form he exists in when I cuddle him

    My radio. I was blaring music so I couldn't hear the fireworks and try to sleep


    Just some pics I took today cos I was bored.